Just want to say: I do get worried/stressed/anxious.
I've been told that I seem like the type of person with no problems in the world whatsoever.
Which is NOT true.
I DO have problems.
It's just that I DON'T like whining about them.
Which is not so good because what happens is that the worry/stress/anxiety will get all bottled up before it's too much and I would find myself waking up in the middle of the night in a panic attack.
WHY do I not like whining/sharing/confiding/whatever about my problems?
I feel...vulnerable.
I see them as I sign of weakness.
Which is stupid.
I know.
I know.
But it's not something I can just NOT do.
It's been that way for...a long time.
Sometimes I'll get a panic attack while walking to my dorm from class. Or even during class.
I think another reason is that I want to be that kind of person that people can depend on.
That my friends can depend on.
And...
I guess I'm not doing a good job.